Just got this website from Mr.Yuterus, found out that blogging doesnt have to be done everyday, only when you feel like it. xD dumb huh? happens..

Well this week is a typical holiday week. Feeling disorientated in time, space, place and person (days just go by and I'm confused as to what day it is), holidays can be quite draggy especially when you have nothing to do and your resolve to study just lingers there like a fly that you can shoo away lazily(and yes you do shoo it away xD).

The days are bleak and I sometimes feel so bored that life really does seem meaningless. Many a times do I just sit down n brood endlessly (when I'm not playing DotA that is) wondering the meaning of life. Boredom has this effect on me and ever since a few years back I've felt this way during long holidays especially, and I sometimes just keep wondering the meaning of Life, what is our purpose on Earth? What am I here for? Why Why Why??? Infuriating as it is, I do often pray for an answer.

During the last holiday as I prayed for an answer, and unto me came it quite suddenly, a revelation I'm sure that was the answers to my prayers. I am here on earth not to serve myself, but to serve OTHERS. To not do what I can to make myself happy but to make OTHERS happy. To serve, not be served.

Happy and satisfied with this revelation, I ended that holidays actually doing a little studying. But here I am again during this holiday searching for another meaning of Life, not being just satisfied with the last revelation. Are there many? Am I to go on forever searching for the meaning of it? Or do I just find a few and be satisfied with it? I don't know. Sigh. But I'll continue praying. Praise the Lord.